February 20, 2008

seriously..... it's been that long since I've journaled anything..... and I have lost alot of motivation too and think it is because I've not been focused like I was all along. Very frustrated lately! Still working out about 4 days a week but irritated and trying to eat healthy still but noticing that I'm just not paying attention to how much and what I'm putting in my mouth. Journaling is so beneficial and so I am going to start it again and want to try hard to stick with it. Work has created so much stress that I've been more overwhelmed than I have felt in a long time. So again.... I need to find time to do things to take care of myself... this is just one way to do that.

8 am.... piece of whole grain toast with little butter and two pieces of turkey sausage. Also having a cup of coffee with sugar free vanilla caramel creamer.

Weds. January 30, 2008

8 am.... walked on the treadmill for 34 mins doing intervals.

Well after talking with a friend last night about this whole weight loss thing I have decided to do things a little different. She is concerned I'm not eating enough.... I"m concerned about eating too much because of wanting this weight to come of. However I totally get what she is saying so I've decided to keep track of calories of things too... we'll see how that goes... wondering how frustrating it may be but I'll give it a go. So here we go so far for today:

Breakfast: 7 am

One Maple Oatmeal muffin (made these a few nights ago and they are pretty good) 220 calories
1/4 tsp of butter on it 25 calories
6 oz of milk 60 calories

Snack: 9:30 am

2 wasa crispbreads 90 calories
2 tbsp pb 190 calories
1 tbsp honey 60 calories
coffee with 2 tbsp sugar free creamer 30 calories

11:30.... guess a little snack.... an apple and 1/2 a turkey sandwich on whole grain with mustard and hot pepper cheese. I'll have to figure out these calories later... I have no idea.

2:30 ... had pistachios 170 calories and a choc chip cookie (only one) from downstairs. Also finished 20 more oz of water to make 40 oz total for the day. Also drinking hot tea plain. Freezing here today....

Tuesday Jan 29, 2008

8:45... home with jared... he's sick so I cancelled my clients and am spending the day taking care of him and getting caught up. My cell phone is ringing off the hook as my business phones are always forwarded to my cell phone when I'm not in the office. I can't even explain how many people have called.... I made a piece of whole grain toast with a little butter and 2 soft boiled eggs. Also had 2 pieces of bob evans sausage and my usual coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer.

11 am.... 1/2 c of pistachios and a clementine.

1 pm.... 3 dill pickles, some pretzel crisps, and a can of progresso lentil soup. I gotta get going on my water.... not really drinking much that last two days so I'm pushing myself to drink it. Not sure what is up with that. Just carrying around my water bottle everywhere I'm going. Cleaned out some of my drawers and saw cute panites I wouldn't be able to squeeze myself into at this point. Put them in the back to pull out for later when I'm at my goal weight. Sorry if thats too much info.... I love girly stuff like that and miss it! So that was good motivation for today.

3 pm... had full of mini marshmallows. 20 oz of water.

4 pm... 34 mins of interval cardio on the treadmill and later did abdominal exercises!

5:30 pm... had italian turkey club salad and a banana. Also had handfull of choc covered dried cherries from Mark's dads. Had 20 more oz of water making total for the day 40 oz.

Monday January 28, 2008

7:15 am... ate a maple oatmeal muffin I made last night and it was pretty good. Also had a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. In addition, I ate a banana a little later. Also have lost 2 more lbs so that makes 8 total! Yippee!!!!!

11 am... had a handful of pistachios....

1 pm... had a grilled chicken salad with light italian and an ice tea from BW3. Had lunch with Carla... it was nice to catch up. Back in the office now with plenty to do.

3 pm... half a turkey and hot pepper cheese sandwich and a clementine.

7 pm... 2 spicy chicken soft tacos from taco bell and water.

Probably only had at max 40 oz of water today. Need to improve that.

Sunday, Jan. 27, 2008

9 am.... had a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer and an omelet with mushroom, onion, and cheese. Also had 2 pieces of bacon and a piece of whole wheat toast. Feel like being lazy today but the kids insist on going to the Y! So guess I'm going to have to go.

11:30 am.... 100 calorie hostess cupcakes. Now they are all gone... just bought them yesterday but between 4 of us here they are bye bye... which is good because I only had 2 packs total and it took care of my chocolate cravings.

1 pm... a serving of pita chips and hummus. A clementine and 20 oz of water. Just finished walking/running on the treadmill for 32 mins going 2.145 miles. Will be going to the Y with the kids and lifting weights and swimming for about 2 hours later today. Made them an appt with the trainer for today and Tues so that will keep my motivated to get there too.

2 pm went to the Y and lifted weights for 1/2 hr or 45 mins while the kids worked with their trainer. Then we went and swam in the pool for over an hour. I did 24 laps... yippee! Now just 40 more to make a mile... geesh! I am wiped out I say. When we got home I ate an apple and have drank 20 more oz of water. We are going to Mark's dads for dinner tonight and I am so hungry. Did alot of activity today and feel great about it!

6 pm... Had pot roast with carrots, baby new potatoes, and tomatoes. It was very yummy. I also had one grand roll and about 1/2 c of cole slaw. Also had about 12 choc covered dried cherries. These are my weaknesses at Mark's dad's house and I can't wait until they are all gone but I think I must be the only one that eats them because they are always still there! Passed on the drumstick (ice cream) though which was good... those are 340 calories! Oh my!!!!! Drank about 10 more oz of water. Feeling pretty tired tonight.

Saturday 26, 2008

Well this upcoming Monday is the weigh-in day for doing the Best Life Diet.... I certainly am doing components of this diet however I wish the weight were coming off faster. I am not patient by any means. I have lost 6 lbs that I know of but I haven't been on a scale in over a week. I'm fighting with myself over exercise. Just to a point where I'm going to have to make myself do it no matter what. I am successful at getting at least 3 workouts in but wanted 5 at least. I guess its an improvement from what I was doing which was nothing. I also need to add weights. Work is a huge stressor.... I am weeks behind and have a waiting list for clients who want seen. I have three families that are going through custody battles and refuse to take any more families like that for now. Just feeling discouraged with work again which as you all know is not good for me. I am meeting on Feb 1 were the owners from the office I used to be in located in Tipp City to see if we can work out something for me to return. They are interested in me getting their office in order in addition to seeing clients which to me means I pay little to no rent to be there. So we'll see how that all pans out but I do know I can keep doing it all myself. To see clients but then spend tons of time of the phone with insurance companies doing what support staff usually does. I'm just exhausted. I have to go into work today which I'm not thrilled with but at some point I have to get caught up. So I'm trying really hard not to allow the stress to give in to emotional eating and not exercising ... I know this is all necessary for me to be healthy. Thanks for the encouraging words and support since I started all this. You all are great!

9 am.... Had one piece of sausage and two mini blueberry pancakes that I made for the kids. They had 2 friends spend the night and they woke up starving this morning. I still have the mess to clean up :-). Probably not the best thing I could be eating this morning but it looked pretty good and since it took me an hour to get it all made I thought I am eating this! haha.... Also had my usual coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Glad we have no plans this weekend... ready to just relax! Next week is busy as usual..... but I'm going to focus on each day rather than looking at a whole week..... One day at a time right???????

12 pm... Eating a 6 inch Buffalo Chicken Sub on Whole Wheat from Subway. Thought I'd stop and pick that up and munch while I work. I love these subs..... Gotta get busy!

5 pm ... 100 calorie hostess cupcake (chocolate of course)

7:30 pm.... made Sliced Steak Mushroom and Green Onions with Warm Dijon Potatoe Salad... yum I must say! Took Mark, Jared, and I about an hour to make but was well worth the effort. Supposed to be one of Rachel Ray's 30 minute meals but we always laugh and say "that means an hour!" Guess it's a winner and stays on the month menu. Well.... you'd think I'd be a professional by now but hello.... bloated a few days = that time of the month. I was so frustrated with being bloated and am clueless usually about when that time is coming and hello! Duh!!!!

Got about 60 oz of water in today and also worked out for 32 minutes going 2.145 miles.

Friday, January 25, 2008

7:15 am.... had cup of coffee with half and half and splenda. Also had a bowl of raisin bran with 1/2 cup of skim milk.

2 pm... Starving... had clients back to back and then rushed to get home and was fighting with myself to stop at a drive through for a cheeseburger and fries but won the fight and didn't stop! That felt good. Instead I had a can of progresso chicken noodle soup with a piece of whole grain toast topped with a little peanut butter and honey. Also drank 20 oz of water.

4 pm.... handfull of mini marshmallows.... don't ask me why.... kids were in the cupboards wanting a snack and I viewed those and thought... okay a little.

6 pm.... Had two slices of pizza and a diet Mt. Dew. This is only the 3rd Diet Mt. Dew I have had since Jan 1 so I enjoyed it. I have only allowed myself water, hot tea, or coffee. Pretty excited about that. My husband suggested some wine for me last night but I turned it down ... he said "really" ... I said "yeah thats just wasted calories". So we'll see .... I know in the long run this will pay off I just wish it happened quicker. Really feeling like I need to make myself work out. No excuses. Fighting with myself about that one.

8 pm.... couple hand fulls of popcorn. Drank 20 more oz of water, making the total for the day 40 oz. Would have liked to get 60 oz total. Oh well.... I know yesterday I had 80 oz.... guess it all equals out. Still feeling more bloated..... but not as bad.

Weds. January 23, 2008

5:15 am.... up and worked out for 32 mins going 2.145 miles. Treadmill says I burned about 320 calories but I"m not sure about that. If so how wonderful! Feeling good that the work out is done as I had to really fight with myself to get up and going.

6:30 Had a piece of whole grain toast with a soft boiled egg. Also had my usual cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Finished 20 oz of water.

8:00am Had a bosten creme filled donut after taking Jenna to the doc. She talked me into Tim Hortons before going to school as we typically stop there when she has to go to the dermatologist. I thought to myself... you have not had a donut for weeks, enjoy just one which I did and I finished another 20 oz of water. Took her to school then home to finish up payroll taxes to drop off at the acct. Clients start at noon until 7 tonight.

10 am... Had salad left over from the other night. Just hungry. My belly is bloated and frustrated with that!

Tues. January 22, 2008

7 am... had a piece of sesame toast with two soft boiled eggs. Also had a cup of coffe with usual sugar free hazelnut creamer. Wish I was staying home today... really don't feel like working... don't I always say that???? Snow is flying and it is cold... wanna stay in jammies and cuddle up with a blanket and read! Oh well.... gotta suck it up and go!

9:30 am... Had pita chips with hummus and have drank 20 oz of water. First client did not show up and 2nd client has cancelled... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I could have been at home longer! Now down to 4 clients for the day!

12:00 pm.... Ate chicken barley chili with some baked pita chips.

2 pm... ate 1/2 a power bar

4 pm... ate other 1/2 of the power bar that was left. Finished up with clients for today. Not too bad but still didn't get all the paperwork completed that I was hoping for. Tomorrow is another day I suppose.

6 pm... half of a chicken fajita quesadilla and water. I had 60 oz of water total for today. Didn't get a workout in but planning to work out tomorrow morning.

Monday January 21, 2008

9 am.... Had an english muffin with one sausage patty and a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Not feeling very motivated today and actually am pretty grouchy. It is freezing outside and I'm tired of it..... Freezing I say. Home with the kids today and they need to be at school haha!

11:30 Black bean and corn salad... had this left over from the other night. It is so good!

1 pm.. 6 tyson chicken nuggets and a serving of green beans. also had 1/2 a pack of dark choc m & m's.

5:30 pm... Chicken Barley Chili and side salad with thousand island dressing.

8:15 pm... a drumstick (mark and the kids brought one home for me.... I had just finished working out for 32 mins and going 2.145 miles and I'm sure the calories in the drumstick exceeded the calories I had just burned off.

I drank 80 oz of water today... Great day with the water!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

10:00 am... Mark made a big breakfast. I had coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Also had a large sausage patty, an egg, a small serving of hashbrowns, and one piece of toast. I plan on going to the Y today. Also want to get some cleaning done!

Friday, January 18, 2008

Breakfast: Bowl of Life cereal with milk.

Snack: 2 Wasa crackers with peanut butter and honey.

Lunch: Grilled chicken wrap and ice tea from BW3.... met Mark and his co-workers for lunch. I really wanted some potato wedges with cheese that Mark had with his wings but I refrained. The wrap was pretty filling.

Dinner: Two slices of thin crust pizza with water, water, water..... Not doing as well with my water as I need to be. Definately drinking more water than before the beginning of the year but not as much as I was last week.

Exercise: Kids and I went to the Y and I walked/jogged 1 mile. Also swam 20! laps .... can you believe that! I checked my heart rate occasionally to make sure it was getting my heart rate up and it does. Just feel more relaxed swimming than any other cardio I've done... I just worry that it isn't good enough. But 20 laps is almost 1/3 of a mile. My goal is to one day be able to swim the 64 laps to make a mile. I'm going to have to get some ear plugs or a cap because the water just dumps in my ears and I can hear it..... kinda bugs me. So glad I got that in. I don't go back to work until tuesday and then I have 23 clients scheduled..... busy busy busy week. So I plan on relaxing as much as possible this weekend.

Ok have no idea what all I ate yesterday. It was a long long day full of crisis at work. I got the short end of the stick as far as taking care of myself which I know is a problem with my weight. I ate well I remember until after I got home which wasn't until 8:30 pm. So yesterday is over and I'm focused on today. Mark gets home today from being gone all week which I am so glad about. I've really missed him....

7:15 Had a bowl of oatmeal and coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer.

1:30 pm Had a bowl of minestrone soup wtih crackers, an apple, and small serving of pasta salad. I have drank 20 oz of water.

3:30 pm Had a power bar... caramel peanut fusion. It was good. Wonder what we'll have for dinner tonight??? Didn't plan very well today. But feeling good so far about my choices!

6:30 pm Had spaghetti and garlic toast. Had just an average serving and a glass of milk. Was feeling pretty tired by dinner and had pressure from the kids and Mark to go out to eat. We ended up staying home and having this.

7:15 am.... had half a ham and cheese omelet and a small glass of milk. Now enjoying a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Going to try to really make sure I get more protein in and hope that helps me not feel as hungry. Kids are meeting with the trainer again this afternoon so i will get a workout in then. The pool won't be open for us to use because of swim team and lessons going on .... so guess on friday we'll get back in the pool. Kid's will be disappointed as I was. I'm finding I really enjoy swimming laps.... I'm happy with how I am doing with my water. Only thing I'm not consistent with is taking a multivitamin. Need to start taking it every night because sometimes vitamins can make me feel nauseated.

9:15 am.... slim fast optima milk choc shake and a banana..... on my way to work to get billing caught up and see one client.

12:15 pm... had the rest of the left overs from the hibatchi we went to on Saturday. It was still to yummy. Also trying to drink water.... it isn't going down as well today. Just so busy with all this paperwork!

4:30 pm.... I did do the elliptical machine for 30 mins!!!!!! The kids were meeting with their trainer while I did this and then we walked about 6 laps around the gym... the kids were upset about not getting to swim.... I promised on friday we would go!

6 pm... Had Asian Chicken Stir Fry.... It was yummy!

7:30 am ... had an oatmeal to go bar.... we must head to the grocery tonight. Been putting that off for some time now and the kids are grouchy because of lack of choices. Also had coffee wtih sugar free hazelnut creamer. Have 5 clients scheduled today and have to get my stuff ready for taxes. Kids are off to school and I am off to work.

10:30 am Had cottage cheese and fresh fruit. Drinking water water water... Have lost 6 lbs so far!!!! Yes!!!! Feeling pretty good today!

1:15 pm.... Ate left overs from Sake... had hibatchi.... fried rice with scallops, lobster, chicken, etc ... all mixed up. Drank 40 oz of water so far.

6 pm.... had 16 oz fo water and had a buffalo chicken salad from subway. Yum. Then kids and I ran to the grocery.

8 pm.... had a handful of mini semi sweet choc chips and 5 pretzel chips. Drank 20 more oz of water. I'm done eating for the night eventhough I could go crazy snacking. I know I need more protein but not sure what to eat.... any ideas?

10:30 am.... had a 2 egg omelet with ham and cheese made by my dear husband. Yummy.... doesn't everything taste better when someone else makes it! Also had a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. Going to the Y later today...... Gotta get more water in today.... not been as good over the weekend....

4 pm....Back from the YMCA and meeting with the kids' trainer which went very well. We swam for about 45 minutes following the meeting and I did about 15 or 16 laps in the pool. It takes 64 laps to make a mile... wowwzers... that's my goal though. I want to be able to do that. Had 20 oz of water. Boy I am wiped ... made everyone a small snack when we got home of slices of cheddar cheese, summer sausage, adn crackers. Then I hopped in the shower.

6:30 pm... had dinner with Mark's dad... had a manwich sandwich, a few fritos, and a couple bites of cole slaw. Drank ice water. Also had a couple of handfuls of choc covered dried cherries... He really needs to get rid of those things.... Also had a drum stick. Not great choices. But guess I got it out of my system. Got home around 8 and got ready for next day. Very, very tired.

8:30 am..... got up and made breakfast for us all. Had 2 eggs scrambled with a splash of milk and a piece of whole grain toast. I also had a small glass of orange juice and now drinking coffee with hazelnut creamer. Now I know why Bob Greene says no alcohol during the first month of this. Frankly.... I feel like crap. I'm stuffy, head hurts, tired, drained, feel like doing nothing but nope we have big plans for today. And I'm making myself do them! Supposed to go to the YMCA again and swim and walk/jog on the track with the kids today. They are ready to go!!!! oh my...... momma is feeling a little under the weather! Then we are supposed to go roller skating from 2 until 5. Oh geesh....... I'll make it......

Well we made it to the Y about 11:15 and stayed until 12:45 and the kids and I swam laps and played around in the pool the whole time. We were so tired when we were done. Then home to shower and head to the skating rink for roller skating from 2:30 until 5. Ok girls..... I put skates on for the 3rd time in about 23 years. It was fun! Had a hot dog with ketchup and mustard there and that was it. Oh and a few of Jenna's sour patch kids. Then have had about 20 oz of water.

6 pm had dinner with Mark and the kids at Sake ... it is Japanese Hibatchi and it was so good. Only ate half of my portion and brought the other half home. Also had ice water. I ordered scallops, steak, lobster, and shrimp with rice. Also came with a small salad and miso soup. Yum but I am stuff.

8:30 pm... had a bowl of choc chip cookie dough ice cream with choc syrum and peanuts. Almost done with 20 more oz of water. Should not have had that but every one else was and so I had a smaller serving than I normally would. Guess its okay to splurge sometimes..... Had a great day with the kids and my husband. Held hands in the car going to the restaurant and back... isn't that sweet! Lovely, lovely day. Plan to go to the Y tomorrow about 2:30 ... the kids have a session with their trainer who they will get to meet with a half hour a week. Can't wait to see how this goes and it is awesome having the kids excited for healthy living also! Mark is even going joining us tomorrow too! Gotta get the man on board with this..... Have a great night!

7:15 am.... had a raspberry banana smoothie and about 10 oz of water.

Was totally not able to get out of bed to work out. I'm done early at work today so I want to go home and work out after I pick up kids. That is my goal. I know I do better in the mornings getting my workout in but I'm hoping this works for today.

8:30 cup of coffee with half and half and splenda. I'm tired today.... so so tired.....

12:30 pm... met Gina for sushi.... yummy!!!!!!!!!! It was great. Been craving that for a long time and never could get over there! Then ran to the bookstore for a book because you all know I have a shortage of things to read! Yeah right!

4 pm.... took Jared and Jenna to the YMCA with me and signed us up for a pass! Woohoo!!!! We spent an hour and a half there on the track and in the pool. It was so fun doing that with them. So I think that counts as my workout!!!! I signed them up for the KIDS FIT program where a personal trainer works with each of them for a 1/2 hr a week. They are very excited!

7 pm.... had a slice of pizza and 20 oz of water. Think I got 40 oz in by now. And a small handful of chips. And a mini hershey bar. Well this is when it all falls apart..... friends of ours came over and brought wine.... one of my most fav..... so I had 3 maybe 4 glasses of wine.... bad bad bad....... I think it was more like 4. Went to bed with hiccups.... not good! So there's my day....

ok well at 5:30 I could not get myself out of bed. Turned off both alarms and then cuddled up with Mark. Way too cozy! I am not feeling good still. So so bloated. It's a wierd feeling. Had some back pain last night too so I'm not sure what's going on. I'm hoping to feel better by this evening. Don't know if it is related to intestinal stuff jenna had over the weekend or could that diet mt dew from yesterday have caused such an issue? Not sure but I don't like it. I have 7 clients today and guess what... yep its the last thing i want to do but I'm going to have to get through it. I just wanted to stay in bed today! Oh well..... suck it up right?????

7:15 .. had a bowl of Special K with strawberries and milk. Enjoying a cup of coffee with sugar free hazelnut creamer. I realize from comments from several of you more protein is necessary. I'll work on that. Didn't pack alot to eat today so I'm hoping I'm not too hungry.... not a good sign though when only an hour after breakfast I'm hungry! But I haven't had any water yet either so that might be part of it this morning....

10 am.... ok i'm starving... had a power bar.... yum and drank 20 oz of water

1:30 pm.... eating salad with smoked salmon. And a single serving of applesauce. Drank 20 more oz of water.

6 pm... piece of cheese and slice of summer sausage... Mark ran to the grocery to get things to make dinner and i'm starving.... is this the theme in my life right now.... geesh. We are having club sandwiches and potatoes, mushrooms, green pepper, and onions. Sounds yummy. Probably won't get to eat until 8 pm.... I love when he cooks but then we don't eat until really late. Kids go to bed with full bellies which I don't like. Gotta change when he cooks... weekends would be better for him. Having a large cup of my favorite tea (thx Laura) that I have to find again cause I used my last tea bag. It's yummy!

didn't get to work out today but will be back on the treadmill tomorrow morning!

5:30 am... up and on the treadmill... had to fight with myself to get out of bed but made it! 30 mins on the treadmill for 1.920 miles. Drank 20 oz of water.

7:30 am ate 2 wasa crackers with peanut butter and jam spread on them. Had a cup of coffee with half and half and splenda.

10:15 am... had hummus with pita chips. Drinking more water as I type. Feeling pretty good! Insurance company has come and gone.... the office audit went really well! Thank God it's over!

12:30 pm... boy am I hungry today.... Had a Triple Threat Power Bar... boy Steph you are right ... those are soooooo yummy.....

2:15 pm... eating a bowl of beef vegetable soup with 2 crackers... Finished 20 more oz of water! Feeling pretty good!

5:20 pm.... just finished eating a side salad with a little Italian dressing and a 3 oz size piece of smoked salmon. Also bought a diet dew today... just had to have it! Trying to not allow myself any soda I know its not good... just having quite the sweet tooth today and trying to fight off the urge!

8:15 pm.... had a small bowl of raisin bran with some milk. Finished 20 more oz of water making today's total 60 oz. I feel yucky.... so bloated..... yuck! And I'm so so so hungry today.... don't know why.... anyways... overall pretty good day.

8:30am.. just got to work and got a large coffee with half and half and splenda. Ate an Oatmeal to go bar on the way here and drank about 8 oz of water. I am so tired.... no working out this morning ... i set my alarm but couldn't get up... set 2 alarms actually. Guess I'll have to make time to do it tonight. Feeling pretty stressed.....

10:00 am... ate the other 1/2 of the southwest chicken wrap from yesterday....

1:00 pm... eating a bowl of chili and oyster crackers. Need to get my water in......

6:00 pm... ate a salad and some smoked salmon yum yum. I have had 40 oz of water total so far. Been kicking butt on work stuff.... can't wait until tomorrow morning is over! Also got my hair chopped off!!!!! Not sure about it yet.... my family thinks its really short! Oh I also had a butterscotch cookie... just one!

5:45.... Just got off the treadsmill and went 30 mins for 1.920. I'm going to try to get 2 days of weight training in this week and may try it out on the bow flex. Just need Mark to show me how to use that thing! If that doesn't work out for me then off to his dad's house to lift weights at their gym. Enjoying a cup of coffee before I hop in the shower and then get the kids up. I'm really hoping for a calm day at work today.... got in 16 oz of water!

7 am... eating 6 oz yogurt with granola. Going to finish getting ready for work and then off!

11:30... ate half of a southwest chicken wrap and a cup of fruit and a pickle spear. Finished 16 oz of water! Feeling really good just busy with all the stuff at work going on. As soon as I got into work I had phone calls from a client who wanted to end her life. I was hoping for a calm day but quickly realized it was going to be hectic. Applied for a few jobs... yes that may surprise some of you.... just looking around.... we'll see what comes of it. Off to see more clients!

1:50 pm... eating some pita chips with hummus and having a cup of coffee with half and half. This day is dragging!!!!!

6:30 pm.... ate a few pieces of provolone and cheddar cheese before dinner. Had about 3 oz of ribeye steak, 1/2 cup of hashbrowns, and 1/2 cup of baked beans with 20 oz of water. Feeling stuffed. Fighting of the urge for alcohol because my husband is enjoying several beers due to OSU having their huge play off game. This my friends is a big deal!!!!! Done, Done, Done eating for the day.... will enjoy another 20 oz of water before the night is over! Thanks for all your comments and suggestions.... they are more helpful than you will know!

Sunday, Jan. 6, 2008

11:30 am..... just got out of bed about a half hour ago. My head is pounding so I take 2 Advil and grab a cup of coffee with hazelnut creamer. Not sure if all the stress is causing headaches again or hormones or these changes in eating, etc maybe a combination. But I don't like them. Had one yesterday too! I just finished a breakfast sandwhich from Tim Hortons and had 1 bite of my daughter's choc iced cream filled donut. Very yummy. All the things I need to do today keep running through my head and as Weds approaches I will get more stressed. I realize what is most important for me to do is to eat well, take vitamins, and exercise to help manage stress. But honestly those are the first things I throw out the window because I "think" I don't have time for it when in reality these very things would prolly give me the energy and motivation to work more on what I need to do. My kids are screaming in the background as I speak which just unnerves me :-)! We'll see how much I get accomplished at home but if I don't get very far I will have to go in to the office to get more stuff done. I'm hoping its a good day..... I need it!

4:45 pm .... had an apple about an hour ago. Havent really been feeling all that hungry. Just finished walking on the treadmill for 30 mins going 1.920 miles.... feeling good about getting that done!

7 pm.... had a few pieces of pizza and a small piece of pizza sub at my father-in-laws while we were taking down all the trees and Christmas decorations. Also had a few handfulls of choc covered dried cherries and a handfull of chex mix. Now I know why I can't have that stuff at my house... I don't stop thinking about it. I did only drink water which usually at his house.... more like almost always... I have cocacola.. So i was at least pleased with that. Haven't eaten since 7:30 when I was done with dinner and don't plan on it until tomorrow at breakfast. I'm hoping for a great week with eating and exercise!

Saturday, Jan. 5, 2008

Getting this posted a day late... yesterday was so busy so I'm hoping I remember it all.

7 am... coffee with hazelnut creamer and drank 20 oz of water.

12 pm... lunch with Katie at The Cheesecake Factory. Now I am so proud of myself! So So So proud.... I did choose a coca cola but did not allow myself any refills. I ate 1/2 of a lunch size Santa Fe Chicken Salad and then guess what..... NO NO Cheesecake... didn't do it. Was already full and thought... now that would not be good!

3 pm.... had 20 more oz of water and a 1/2 small serving pkg of sour patch kids.... what a sin is that!

6:30 pm... had dinner at a wonderful restaurant with my husband, father-in-law and his friend. I did have a chocolate raspberry martini (it is my fav) and that was the only alcohol I've had all week. I'm guilty of drinking wine several times a week usually... but that is stopping. We all four shared an appetizer of Mussels which were delish! I also had a few pieces of bread because honestly.... my lips were numb and my head was fuzzy from just the one drink ... boy was it strong! So I felt I needed the bread to soak up some of that alcohol! Then I chose broiled scallops, green beans, and a sweet potato. And I ate all the scallops and green beans and just a few bites of the sweet potato. Took a few onion strings off my husband's plate too! Yummy.

10 pm ... on the ride home I had 2 small homemade brownies. Feeling like I fell off the wagon today but I guess when I look over the whole week I recognize I've made some pretty positive changes. So overall I"m pretty happy with it.

8 am.... well the alarm went off at 5:30am and there was no energy or motivation to go get on the treadmill but every desire to stay in my warm cuddly bed when it is 20 degrees out. So thats what I did. Got up then at 6:10 and jumped in the shower to get ready to leave for the office at 7:45. However, my daughter ends up sick. She is home today from school and my husband and I are splitting the day so I will go in at 1 and see three clients and then home again..... so needless to say my cardio isn't done this morning but I keep telling myself doing it this evening will do as long as I do it. I'm usually horrible if I put it off until evening and it doens't get done. Around 7 am I had breakfast ... 2 eggs with a splash of skim milk scrambled up and a piece of whole grain toast with a smear of peanut butter on it. Now enjoying the typical cup of coffee with hazelnut creamer. Feeling blah this morning. Have so much to do at work with an insurance company coming next week to do an office and chart audit. And I have tons of clients scheduled... don't know when all this will get done..... I'm very guilty of putting myself last when I get overwhelmed by other things in my life so that is the fight right now. How do I keep pushing myself to work out and eat healthy when feeling so overwhelmed.... its something I must push myself to do. So we'll see....

10:45 am.... ate pita chips and hummus and drank 16 oz of water. Going to be heading to work at 1!

12:15 pm.... eating cabbage roll casserole from the other night and drank 16 oz of water! Hope this afternoon goes quick! Feeling pretty good..... got alot of accomplished this morning! Hoping that helps me feel less overwhelmed and able to do some things for work over the weekend. I WILL walk after work! For Sure!!!

2:00 pm.... eating a yogurt with granola before my client arrives. Also finished 16 more oz of water!!!! Feeling good but anxious about all the stuff to do here at work.

6 pm.... ate about a cup serving of cabbage roll casserole again. We had so much left over but it wasn't as "exciting" to eat this time. But ate it and drank more water! Later in the evening I headed to the garage for a little cocacola which I've told my husband not to bring in this house anymore. Haha.... I'm an addict to it... and this is the first one I've had all week!

Overall feel like I had a great day with my eating however no exercise. So many things got in the way which continues to prove to me I must do it in the morning. So many things come my way throughout the day that I put in front of what I need to do for me. Well that really can't happen at 5 am because no one else is awake haha! So that has to be when this is done!

6 am.... my it's aweful early compared to the time I was rolling out of bed during my last two weeks off of work! But I woke up before my 2 alarms (haha) and got my 30 min walk on the treadmill in. Yes!!!! Just enjoying a cup of coffee, kids are on a 2 hour delay because of the snow, and will make breakfast in an hour or so. Just going to enjoy the quiet for a bit. Oh and I have 16 oz of water in already today! Yes!!!!

8 am.... just finished breakfast... had a banana, 2 eggs with a splash of milk scrambled up, and a piece of whole grain toast with a light smear of peanut butter. Drank 16 more oz of water with breakfast. Feeling pretty good.... tired a little! Gotta adjust to going back to work....

10:45 am.... just finished eating a few pita chips and hummus. Drinking more water. I'm at my office with a ton of things to catch up on. Already feeling the stress build on my shoulders. This is something (stress) that leads me to eat.... I'm an emotional eater. So we'll see..... So glad I got my walk in!

2 pm.... eating lunch now as I type... Having left over taco salad without the Doritos! Still pretty good. Have consumed 48 oz of water already today and I'm running to the bathroom between each client! I have to work until 8 pm tonight and I'm already to go back home! Clients are really struggling. I have several breaks today so that I can eat and catch up on paperwork which is a good thing. Being here just overwhelms me at times. I felt so relaxed during vacation. I miss that feeling so much already. Well off to finish eating and complete more work.

4:20 pm.... eating yogurt with granola now. Will have clients straight from 5 to 8 and they are all couples. Today is couples day..... 4 total.... exhausting. Usually I don't see that many in one day. Drank 8 more oz of water making my total 56 oz so far. tonight will be difficult for me since I don't finish until 8 and my eating cut off time is 730. I brought almonds to munch on between clients but I'm wondering if that may not be enough and I'll be hungry. We'll have to wait and see. Oh i have pita chips and hummus too! I may be okay! Let's hope. Feeling pretty good though....

Jan. 2, 2008

So I have woke up this morning really hungry which according to Bob Greene that is a good sign. I am enjoying a cup of coffee with my normal splash of hazelnut creamer. I am cutting back on coffee... only having one cup yesterday rather than a whole pot! I don't know if I will be one who can cut it out completely but I'm willing to cut way back. Concerned that today may be more difficult since I didn't get much sleep last night. I went to bed early with good intentions however my daughter had me up so many times due to her having a stomach ache and I believe being afraid of the wind that was horrific here last night. But I'm going to try my best to make this day as good as yesterday!

9:20 Breakfast.... I just finished eating 2 eggs with splash of skim milk scrambled up. And a piece of whole grain toast with a thin layer of peanut butter. Just beginning to work on my water for the day. Feeling pretty good so far!

1:20 Lunch.... Just finished eating a sandwich on whole grain bread with smoked ham, pepper jack cheese, romaine lettuce, tomato slices, and a little low fat mayo. I have drank 24 oz of water so far today! Half way done with water! Feeling really good!

3:45 .... Finished 30 mins on the treadmill going 1.910 miles. Feeling really good. Got all my water in so far and more going down!!!! Just had abou 7 pita chips with 1/3 c hummus! Yum Yum....

7 pm.... just finished dinner. I ate a serving of Taco Salad that I make myself. Really the only thing in it that isn't all that great is Doritos that you crush up and put the salad on and then the ground beef that is in it. I used very few Doritos and bought the best ground beef I could. I also drank 64 oz of water today! I feel good just busy running to the bathroom every 5 minutes! haha.... I'm happy with my 2 good days.

First day of Best Life Diet

Breakfast: 6 oz peach Dannon yogurt with 1/2 c of granola and a cup of coffee with a splash of hazelnut creamer. Yum Yum. Feeling pretty good at this point. Have been struggling with a cold/sinus issues the last couple of days. Plan on getting on the treadmill before dinner.

Its 1 pm and just finished walking on the treadmill for 30 mins... distance was 1.907 miles! WooHoo! Also have drank 16 oz of water. Feeling very positive and proud of myself for actually exercising since I'm not feeling the best. I usually use any excuse not to exercise! Getting ready to fix myself lunch in a bit.

Lunch: Turkey and smoked cheddar cheese on whole grain bread with a dab of maysonnaise. Also had about 1/2 c of smoked baked beans. Drank 16 more oz! Feeling great!

Snack: 8 oz of water, couple of pita chips with hummus, and carrots.... I'm starving! Can't wait til dinner!!!!!!

Dinner: a serving of cabbage roll casserole, about 2 oz of pork loin, and 2 rolls. Ok really I know I only needed 1 roll but they were so yummy. I drank 8 more oz of water to get all my water in! Yes!!!! And I havent' eaten anything since 7:30. Done with eating until tomorrow. Enjoying some herbal tea this evening by the fire... it's so cold here.